31.12.14

The last day of the year is here, and am i pleased? I don't know, am i?
I feel a little numb after what I've been through throughout this year. Its been a year of mainly downs but a few ups - i went in a plane - that was an up!!
It all started on the 7th january when i had my results. Shock, horror. I wasn't expecting that. Cancer.
All the tests etc to stage/grade me, that was no fun at all, but i managed to have fun anyway! Me and Linda seem to have laughed our way through the year, despite all the shit going on.
One of my chemo nurses sent me a message the other day saying she misses mine and Lindas giggles.
I must say i preferred laughing to crying, which i did occasionally, usually when i was on a downer from the steroids, those naughty little life savers.
If you'd have asked me before diagnosis how i would be if i were told i had cancer, i would have said id be a drama queen. Ive let the drama club down badly!
I love the thought that I've let the nightmare make me a stronger person. Don't get me wrong, I've had my moments. But I'm quite proud of myself.
Ive loved how my imagination has run riot in my blog at times with regard my relationship with my haematologist, or future husband as i like to call him!!
But it has made me a little intolerant, or a little more than i already was! I get wound up by peoples stupidity, and I'm unable to let it go which does me more harm than the other person. They are usually unaware.
I can't bare self indulgent people, attention seekers, people that think its all about them! And theres quite a few of them about. I try to steer clear of them.
I must mention the wonderful UK Hodgkins Lymphoma group on Facebook.
I cannot sing their praises enough. They have helped tremendously. They've been so supportive having been through it, or still going through it. I have now become admin on the group and i feel honoured to do so, and i intend helping as many people as i can on there.
I won't mention the one person on there who sent me a photo of his kitchen kettle with the comment, 'They always take so long to boil, don't they?'
What i quickly realised was that his kettle was a shiny chrome one. One with a reflection.....!
I suggested he put a dressing gown on, but that wasn't part of his agenda!!
All part of the rich tapestry of life, i suppose.
Of course, I've been in remission since my 4th chemo in march/april time, but it didn't really register with me cos i never really accepted i had cancer in the first place. It was all a bit surreal.
So now I'm 5 and a half months post chemo, how am i feeling?
Mentally i feel good, although in the back of my mind is always that common niggle, 'will it come back?' But i don't let it get me down. I push it to the back of my mind.
Physically is a different story. I have a few problems as I've put in previous blogs. They don't seem to get any easier. Im hoping 2015 will help me lose the weight i put on, which in turn should make my joints less painful. But at the end of the day, I'm alive and kicking, although not kicking to hard cos it hurts.
Anyway, how am i celebrating the end to 'annus horibilis'?
Im working! A night duty tonight and tomorrow night, luckily a sleeping duty so not too much hardship. Im sure Jo, the lady I'm PA for, won't want to party till the early hours!
So, i better get my stuff ready to take to work. My laptop and my knitting, my bedding and my hot water bottle.
I will take this opportunity to wish all of my blog friends the most wonderful new year, and hope i get one too! I must remember to turn off the vibrate on my phone as well as the ringtone. I dont wanna be disturbed in my slumber whilst you all party the year away.
Happy new year.