4.5.15

Happy bank holiday to you all.
I thought i would take this opportunity cos I've just watched The C Word!
I must say i enjoyed it but kept forgetting it was a true story.
I think its a good idea to give an insight, and it was only a small insight, into what it feels like to go through 'C'.
That poor girl went through all that, and then lost her life. But so many these days, survive. Although as I've said before in my blog, its constantly with them, forever.
The effect it has on family, friends and work colleagues who must feel so helpless.
I think The C Word showed it fairly accurately.
It just shows, we should all enjoy our lives. Go out and do it! Whatever 'it' is.
You can't help but have an affinity with another cancer sufferer when you've been through it yourself. But I've noticed on my HL journey, there are a few that have to have 'had it worse' than anyone else. They always take it back to them.
If you've had a blood clot, they've had 2. If you had a low blood count, theirs was lower! If you were a stage 2, they were a stage 3. If you had a lot of pain..... BAM, theirs was far worse!
Its not a competition. We all have our own problems, our own demons and our own way to cope, or not!
Funny how humans do that.
'We're going to Bali for 2 weeks holiday this year!'
'Oh we went there last year for a month. We're touring the Himalayas this year and being guided by a tibetan monk!'
'Ive brought a new car, a ford fiesta and its only 3 years old.'
'Yeah, I've just brought a jag XK straight out of the showroom. Zero miles on the clock! And Jeremy Clarkson took it for a test drive before us but we beat him to it cos he was busy shouting at the receptionist cos there wasn't any hot food on site.'
I think its a sign of their own insecurity, needing to be looked up to, and seen to be better than the other person.
Either that or they have a small penis! Thats my answer for everything. Of course that doesn't work for women, or not all women,anyway!
Anyway.... i digress.
I am coming up to my 3rd post chemo check up. I can't believe it, 10 months since my last chemo!
Am i back to normal?
Nope!
I have lost a stone and a quarter in weight, although, having been at Chris's house for the weekend, and having a 'weekend off' the diet, I've probably put it back on again. This week i will be as good as i can on the diet. It does give me an insight into how my behaviour will be when i finally finish the diet! The same mindset as when i was on steroids. Just 'eat it'! I shall have to be very careful.
At my last check up, Dr Jack nearly forgot to weigh me, and i was happy until he remembered. I told him id lose a stone before my next check up - and i have! Maybe i can lose a bit more before my next appointment. I could wear my ra ra skirt and boob tube to display my new body, although, technically, 'new body' isn't the correct adjective. More like, well used or second hand. Im sure Dr Jack will be 'well chuffed' to see the more aerodynamic me!
Anyway, a week and a half of low carbs to return to the sylph like figure that I've become!
And a week after my appointment, i have a holiday to look forward to.
Visiting Annette and Colin in Brittany. I shall have to pack my bikini!
I really can't wait.
See you in a week and a half with an empty arm (bloods to be taken!), a slimmer body, and hopefully good news from Dr Jack.